Not again!

Okay...so here goes....

Doug and I are expecting our 5th child in April. Our first four were planned, this one is a little bit of a surprise. The emotions that I have felt the last few months have been so incredible. First, it didn't feel real. I thought, NO WAY. I had prayed about it earlier and felt like...yes, we are done. I didn't feel physically, emotionally, spiritually, or financially ready to have another child. Slowly, over the past 3 months, I have been able to change those feelings to acceptance, peace and overwhelming joy. I love being a mom. I love watching my children learn and grow. I love the excitement of holidays that children express. I've just started my 2nd trimester and I know that once this new little spirit comes, I won't remember how our family was without him/her. At one time I even felt guilty for being pregnant. I know so many women who struggle with even getting pregnant. Heavenly Father has a plan for all of us. He knew that there was just one more spirit waiting to come down.

When we told the kids, they were sooooo excited. They had me pull out their scrapbooks so they could see what they looked like as a newborn. They jumped online to look at the most popular baby names. (Which they are convinced we are having a boy named Tyler). I overheard the girls playing dolls and one of the dolls was a baby boy named Tyler. So cute.

Since we were "done", we gave away ALL of our baby clothes, furniture, maternity clothes, etc. So it'll be like starting all over again. Most of the stuff we had was from Jordan 10 years ago and is outdated anyways.

So, here is to another life changing experience!